Clutters of life, Looking in a Grim Future

The Suffocating Silence by Redemption on Grooveshark

It’s been times I wonder how the hell am I going to through life in a minimum wage that’s not getting me anywhere and I wonder the same with the others that’s going thru life in college and some thought…how the hell are does kids are handling the life in the world of unemployment of socialites.  I find how laughable that people thinks that congress is going to help them…that’s a lie! The world is going to the shiter, it even doesn’t matter.  The fact is its still a long time that we are going to see a recovery, for the moment its very grim future for moment here.  Its recovering slowly with the same shit we are hearing,  lots of people of have a hard time paying the bills and I’m having a had time doing that with two bills that’s really tight on my back with few day ahead.  I wonder…how are people doing it in does times?

I like to see the economy improving just like everybody but it doesn’t mean we are just going to wait and wait till it fix it self.  Someone has to do it and turn it around?! But I’m glad that I been working you’ll be surprise that I worked 8 jobs and worked my ass more than anyone of my friends,  I know I hear the fact there are people that willing to work and some aren’t going to help,  that’s just sad, I know often hear I’m looking for job and I’m trying and I know that’s true and I know your trying.  I’m wondering how hard are you trying in the grim state we’re living?  I figure same to myself in the moments but I try not to worry about it.  otherwise I can get anywhere with the same thought pattern of struggle and still trapped on debt. I hope that I don’t get a knock on the door one of these days from the men in black and hit of the flashing memory erasing device like you see in the movies.  

I like to see to more support on the blogs and my future projects that I’m working on currently.  I’m not asking much but I do ask to put what you can and tell anyone what I’m doing…it doesn’t take much effort to help anyone.  currently the game is still in the works.  But I’m we are finishing up the video this week and one of people of the team is finishing up the video from what I hear from does guys.  look us up at on our facebook page Konseption Unlimited

Thank you! 

P.S. for all the young ones that’s going through the same path as me, I got out of high school since 2009 and I know how it is going through hardship for most of us and there’s the few that sits in the laps luxury high in the utmost of the throne entertain with the jesters and taking life with ease sure didn’t have a inch of a clue the hell we are living.  The best thing is that live the best and think of the good and let discouragements stop the best of you.  It hurt to hear someone that say to you can’t make it…  don’t ever and never like anything hateful bury you in the dirt, The most you can do is rise back in can make it to the top. 

Today’s My 21st Birthday

Well I’m 21 now and feel getting older and just about everyday that how I feel but somehow I have to get use to it,  Its life and today I’m going to do the best I can today and even dough I don’t have nothing planned out exactly but I’m going to try to do everything I can today like…
 Get a Flying Car, Play Video Games a day long or Sky Dive! (just joking no way in hell I’m going to jump out of the plane and do that). *laughs* Even if my mom and my brother is going to be busy today till the evening I know I’ll be getting allot of time to do that.  What my plans are today since my brother is out working I’m going to be playing the Xbox for almost the whole day!  Watch anime online and keep up with new anime that I haven’t watch before….and so fore.  I know I’m going to be having chillax day at home mostly and be getting presents from family and friends and the good shit that they’re gonna get me.  But what I like yesterday that my brother gave me Stephen King’s new novel from the Dark Tower Series, his 8th installment, The Wind Through the Keyhole, which I’ll be taking the time to read his book later though out the day. (later on I’ll be reviewing the latest novel from The Wind Through the Keyhole later on the weeks ahead, So stay tuned)
Other than that it’s going to be fun and exciting birthday so whatever hits me today…will be as fun as any other will be.  
That’s for reading!  Time to head off!

Is having a Co-Founder is really needed…Most likely No! Here’s why.

Have you though working with a friend be a good idea…think about it…is it?  I don’t think so!

The thing about having one is that someone that if you know so well that if you do plan to start with a friend not a good idea because its going to cause problems with you two it’ll go well with you! believe me (I’m in it right now I can’t believe I have to join up with him and also I really don’t know if he’s really decided into doing this,  I have a problem with that because in order to have a partnership with a friend you two need to work hard on it  about every week of the day in order to get it done.  Since college is just in the way and we both have different goals in life and his main goal is to work with the fashion industry and I want to work in the gaming industry)
somehow he wants to get involved with the gaming industry I myself have to disagree with the decision he’s wanting to take and we only got 1/3 of the game and not enough of content is coming because some of the guys  that I work just done part of a game,  that I did one quarter to it and rest is nothing!  Because I have no characters and enemies in that’s been created yet,  I was going to go ahead and start creating character on my own because I haven’t seen characters yet from my Co-Founder and felt that it needed to be done, Once I got done with one of the character I know it felt ugly I know I got discouraged from one of the team and I don’t know how this will end for us,  the thing I know is that we haven’t seen each other for months I can’t stand to see myself waiting,  the reason it was so slow because of college and three other guys I know are in the end of finishing up high school I know that’s a reason why,  But doing their break they can least make time to do that! but they can’t becauses of family and do some crap that I need to do and this and that crap!  If you’re going to bring people in your team make sure there out of High School or College otherwise it’ll bring pressure to them, since it’ll give them a hard time just to finish with their things with homework and family matters,  Bring a person that has free time in their hands and not fooling around chasing the ladies in college.  (If you have friends in High School still want to consider working with you the best thing to tell them is wait till they get of school and then work on a project with you guys)
Since I’m the boss no one will be telling what to do?  The second thing I will tell you from my personal experience from my team is that, YOU WILL GET PRESSURED A LOT! and thats the truth they’ll put the blame on you just because you can’t everyone straight here and there and it’l not going to be your fault even if you have people around you and is slow and the company is at it’s Pre-Alpha stages of the company.  I know I remember very well that my this dude won’t even shut up on he needed the art for the game and the only material I got was landscaping,  the form of art I’m good at everytime I draw characters he gets pissed at it a lot!  now a week ago I told him for godsakes I wouldn’t do art!  Jez!.  I know he’s seventeen and smart but two things he doesn’t have is patience and maturity to be with us,  encase he doesn’t know company’s like twitter took them about 8 years to start up!  I bet it wasn’t easy for Jack Dorsey to make that happen.    But he has a lot of learning to do,  even dough my Co-Founder doesn’t agree with  me, even he says that even dough he’s young, but young people has a head up when doing it early I know that’s fine an and blah blah but even young people can slip when mistakes happen can fall into dead ends and can be easily hit when making a stupid decisions.
Lastly,  If you can’t work with team or a Co=Founder then leave its don’t try to make this a mess then it is otherwise you’ll have to end up wasting time with idiots that is not going be take time be together,  plan ahead,  meet up together,  I need to tell that fashion designer to keep designing clothes and don’t get involve into the game industry, it’s hard to see this not involving into something that’s nothing reaching to the top.  I sorry this just sad to me.  
I’m going solo on this one!  If you do find a partner make sure that he’s doing 50% behind on what he’s doing.  
That’s it !I’m out for the night! take care guys! 

Plateau Effect

Today It was a sunny day outside, I don’t know if I wanted to school today, so I decide to stay home and get some things done around the house. So I went to grab food for the cat so she won’t starve to death *laughinng*

Also I went to across town by bike, ever since I ride my across town to see a friend over at Mt. Zion I don’t felt tried it’s strange to myself not getting tried, once I started my trip over there not once I stop for a brake on the side of the road have some water.  By I got over arrived I was like “wow I’m not tried once…it’s just incredible!” My friend wasn’t expecting me to come to his place since we plan on for him to pick me up Saturday.  So I chilled for a bit over at his place, I told my friend that I wasn’t so tried I was riding to his place  and mention that I got so use to it. He said “it must be a Plateau Effect it no wonder you aren’t tried”.  Somehow that word got stuck in my head by the time I went riding home, so I check what is Plateau Effect.

 So I change to my decent clothes to start job searching over at his area.  So the first place I start is Verizon wireless. Sucks that they only do online application only, then I went to Atlanta Bread Company to drop a resume there.  Then afterwords I went to Barnes & Nobles, I felt that I’ll be getting the job.  I going to pray that happens I like the customer service, It’s helpful the guy that’s leaving the message for manager to check on the application for B&N and Starbuck…I forgot to mention that B&N has a cafe.  Good thing I applied to starbucks about two months in advance.  ( I know that starbucks app is going to be in the database for 90 days, so I’m going to see about updating it soon)   Then I went to a couple place like T.G.I Fridays, Carrabba’s, Gamestop, Planet Smootie and AMC to drop my resumes and then called it a day.

I went to back to my friends house and chill again at his place for an hour.  I was heading back home to rest and even I felt push it just so I can look for employment. I don’t know what to expect, what I do need is to ready when the time comes.  I know it not going easy and I want to feel it’s a easy thing to do but truly it’s a tough world now, all we need to survive make it through the days ahead to come.  I know I plan to go to AWA (Anime Weekend Atlanta) to the next couple of weeks that what I plan saving my money when the day  comes I like to go there till the end of this month.  I keep updated, I’m still figuring out if we are going or not.

Signing Off!